Lost

I know I'm not good enough.. I know I quit before I knew if it would always suck. I know..

I quit my factory job in a week because it was hell. My hands were swelling and hurting and it didn't heal for like a month after I quit. I had another job offer which turned into two job offers, and it was going great!

Except.. they told me I had to acquire two background checks on my own ("it's not our responsibility") because of not living in this state for at least five years. So.. yeah.. now we are waiting on the money to do that..

Really we are in no better place now than in Omaha. So what was the point of moving? Oh yeah, we were trying to make a better life! So much for THAT idea!

We went to my old home to see my dieing great grandmother (horribly weak and frail.. so tiny..) and grabbed my cats as well (stupid idea.. stupid stupid stupid!!)... So we are tight on cash.. AGAIN (big surprise). *sigh*

I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know what WE are going to do.

His dad isn't happy that we aren't paying our full rent. Wants us to skip our best friends' wedding (my bff and his bff are marrying each other May 15) for money reasons.. Not going to happen. He still has to get an outfit ready, and I still need to buy my dress. We can't afford it.

Also, bills from Omaha came in today... It's like $400 total in bills... here and there. Guess food is going to be scarce again.. for both humans and cats. House is going to stink from lack of kitty litter...

I'm lost....